Miracles
come in all shapes and sizes, some appear instantaneously and others
are traced over the passage of time. Miracles involve us, change us,
captivate our attention, build our faith, and leave us mystified. Yet
we have no control over them, no formula to create them and no
ability to replicate the result. It is likely no stretch to say, a
life lived, positions us all with the opportunity to cry out for a
miracle or two. Our life has carved out a few of these occasions to
date; the most recent being our cry for the miraculous healing of our
daughter who has epilepsy.
There are many unique and ongoing
details attached to the journey we are on with Rosyn Joy, though a
simple explanation would be; in our brain there exists a looped
circuit, while we sleep this circuit is normally at rest but for
Rosyn this circuit is continuously active, which prevents her from
putting what she learns to memory. Her speech is the most obvious
area that has been affected and we are searching for a treatment to
help her!
The seriousness of Rosyn’s epilepsy
really began to emerge in February, with two different hospital
stays. Family is our most important earthly treasure and as such we
have gone to our knees, in submission before God to work out how He
would have us respond in a time like this. We have been brought to
seriously wrestle through some big questions like; why do we pray,
how do you pray effectively, what is a miracle, how do you pray for a
miracle, who is God and what defines His character, how do you get
faith to move mountains, how do you access grace when life is hard
and the list could go on. Our pursuit for answers has been
challenging and at times unwanted, but humbly I tell you that Jesus
Christ has been the center upon which we have focused our energy, and
for this I cannot give thanks enough! I would say this journey has
not been a crisis of faith but rather a building of trust in the
belief that God will redeem the setbacks Rosyn currently faces and
this is exciting news! Our circumstances could quite easily equate to
the making of a sad story but we serve a God who will use Rosyn's
trial for His ultimate glory!
Of course it would seem God can always
teach me more than I set out to learn and so it was during one of the
most difficult weeks we’ve experienced so far, God had plans to
deepen my perspective! I was scheduled to take a bible course called
“Kairos”, a Greek word which can be fittingly translated “taking
full advantage of the present time”. This course presented the
overarching purpose of God’s plan and how He assigns us the task to
make His name know throughout the world. Ultimately the Holy Spirit
used this time to birth in my heart what was only yet knowledge to my
head; the belief that as a disciple of Jesus Christ I am called,
at a cost, to make God’s name known among the nations. Following
Jesus is not just believing in Him and reaping the benefits of His
blessing, rather it is intentionally choosing to take His blessing to
people who have not heard!
God is comforter, His love is
perfect, He loves Rosyn, He is always faithful, He is for
me and my family and my loved ones and all creation for that matter –
but I would be missing the point if this is all that structured my
purpose in following Christ! God is Lord of all and desires to have
his name known in all the earth. God loves me yes – but ultimately
God’s desire is for all peoples of the earth to love Him –
and His plan will be completed with or without me. This whole truth
impassions me to look past living for myself to a life lived under
the outline of God’s plan. Right now our journey with Rosyn will be
used to proclaim that the one God of this universe is GOOD, ALL the
time, He will work together the health issues Rosyn faces for the
good of his Glory because we love Him. We will continue to pursue God
and seek the ways He would like to use our story to impact those who
have not yet heard the good news of Jesus. There is a bigger picture
being drawn out, and although we can only see one brush stroke, we
believe in Christ and know Rosyn's story will be encompassed in the
masterpiece of God's story.
Jenny
